I’d like to pretend that anyone following this blog has noticed the sudden decline in regular (or interesting) posts. However, I know this isn’t the case, this isn’t the sort of blog where people come back hungrily for more, it’s more the sort of blog you’d click on when it comes up in your newsfeed and you wonder how a self-administered chemical peel turned out, but I’m okay with that.
Since I’ve been banging on about not updating, I might as well explain why; I’m doing a degree and and I’m at the very end of it, meaning I’m stressed to the eyeballs. The daft thing is, that I’m prancing around like I’m the only person ever to do a degree, have two kids and work! I know for a fact I’m not. Hell, one of my friends gave birth twice during the course (I mean, there was a hospital involved, it wasn’t under the table or anything) but she just carried on as normal and is doing ace. Whereas I’m sloping around with bags under my eyes a greasy hair while the stress comes to a crescendo and I have to work into the night. I really need to pull myself together.
Last weekend. I went to BlogOnX which was fantastic and really inspired me to do better – not just with my blog, my whole life. The thing is, everyone is struggling for different reasons, and mine are really unimportant in the grand scheme of things.
I’m now incredibly motivated to have a fab life. Weirdly travelling to Manchester on one short train journey (with no connections) has made me feel a bit invincible. Maybe it was refreshing to have an uninterrupted night’s sleep away from the kids. Maybe it was seeing a load of lovely people from all over the country I’ve been dying to meet. Maybe it was hearing the great speakers telling us that they work as hard as we all do and their success was a slow-burn product of that, reminding me there is no ‘easy way’ and there are no shortcuts.
I was feeling demotivated before I left. Questioning why I was going out of time in the middle of the most important assessment period of the whole 3 years I’ve spent at uni. On the train down (up? my geography is terrible) I was cringing about how neglected my blog had been and was hoping no one I might meet over the weekend would remember to look at it if it came up in conversation.
Now I’m ready to make a proper go of it. A proper go of life. In two weeks my degree is over, and my blog can really come into its own. I already make a part-time wage off something I put part-time hours into and I can’t wait to put so much more into it soon.
My dissertation was about what makes people happy at work. Common themes throughout the whole of it were that people said they would be happier if they had more time to spend with loved ones or on leisure time, and that more money would make them happier too.
I’m really lucky to work from home and I don’t want to waste this opportunity to carry on. If I need to put more hours into what I do, I can find those hours between 10pm and 2am (which is when I study when life has eaten up all of the more sociable hours).
More time to spend with loved ones is what most people dream of. I have that time and I’m not prepared to give it up. I’ve got my fight back and I’m ready to do whatever it takes to provide for my family and give them as much time as they need.
No more excuses.
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Yes! And when you work out how to do it all let me know! Welcome back xx
I will! And thank you. I can’t wait to be drunk on the freedom of not writing assignments and instead write rubbish for the internet! x
These lightbulb moments are great. I remember having one on a train too – I was just sat there thinking – “why?” and now I’m self-employed and much more motivated to achieve. I think it’s fine to feel overwhelmed – it’s our brain telling us to slow down – but it’s also nice to feel energised again.
I love getting a surge of motivation , it makes such a difference to every aspect of you life doesn’t it? I’m even considering taking up running and maybe eating some fruit! x