I’ve been engaged for few months now, but haven’t got round to booking my wedding. This is partly because me and the fiancé are pretty terrible procrastinators but partly because of my weight.
I know there’s all this body positivity about, with inspiring quotes like “there’s no wrong way to have a body” and for the most part I agree. But this doesn’t feel like my body.
I’ve always been teetering on the edge of overweight, always the bigger side of normal or creeping up in into the ‘need-to-lose-10lb’ range. Mindy Kaling put it best on her show, The Mindy Project, where she says “I fluctuate between chubby and curvy”. That was me.
That was me until I crept up much bigger than I ever was before and I’m struggling to shift it. When I shop for my wedding dress, I want my old body back (or maybe a slightly better one if I can muster it).
This is why I have set a goal. A goal to chip away large amount of weight before September this year so that I can start looking at dresses (and venues) to give me the perfect day. I don’t want the perfect body, I just want my own body, this hefty lump I’m dragging round with me is not mine.
Originally, I planned to lose 50lb in three months. Although this has been achieved by many, after a discussion with my Weight Watchers leader, it seems like a goal that requires a lot of work and may leave me demotivated in the long run.
So instead my goal is 30lb in three months. That’s still a significant amount (just over 2 stone for the Brits reading this) and anyway, I’ll still secretly be aiming for that 50 in my head.
The basics of the plan are that I’ll follow the Weight Watchers eating suggestions (and portion sizes, I’m a greedy monster when left to my own devices) as well as aiming to do regular exercise.
I recently joined my local leisure centre and have been swimming (read more here) but intend to gradually increase my activity over the coming months. I want to feel the health benefits of weight loss and if I don’t keep my body fit, I worry that I won’t.
So this exercise is a new hobby. I haven’t had chance this last week because I’ve had exams. My last exam is tomorrow and then I can give this my all.
I can’t wait to feel more like myself and I can’t wait to look at wedding dresses. No one wants to compromise on their big day and unless I lose weight I will have to on my dress.
So this is a new beginning and I can’t wait!